He said this to stretch Philip’s faith. He already knew what he was going to do. (John 6:6 MSG, 12-12-11)

That is a fun verse unless you are the one playing he role of Philip. Then it kind of sucks.

I could try to see past the testing to the goal God has of growing my faith to make me more like Him. But it is Monday and I’m not in a “look on the bright side” kind of mood.

I could be thankful God cares enough about me to put in this kind of time with me, but again, not feeling over “bright side-ish”.

Or maybe I could focus on the miracle God is up to. For Philip it was feeding 5000, and while God’s probably (probably!) not working anything that big through me, He’s still working God-sized things.

Or, I could choose to hang on to my Monday doldrums.

Or, how about I don’t try to achieve “bright eyed and bushy tailed” just yet, but promise myself I won’t let myself stay here very long, and as soon as I’ve felt sorry for myself long enough (an hour more sounds about right?), I’ll remember what Jesus was up to with Philip, and how “He already knew what He was going to do,” and I’ll get back to serving the miracle worker who wants to work His miracles through me.

[Father, thank you for all the things I wrote above. Help me get past these blahs and back to letting you work through me as you desire, knowing that even in testing, you know exactly what you are up to.]